For the last few days I have been reflecting on how 2019 as a year as a whole has been for me personally and the goals I hope to accomplish for 2020. Since I’m listening to the 2009 self-titled Killswitch Engage album and have free time, I thought hey, why not post my thoughts.

2019 as a whole was not a bad year for me from a personal self perspective more of a bad year for things and those around me. 2019 as a whole was very drama free and really was a good year to focus on myself and building a life for myself because just 2 months earlier I had moved in my own home, so I was still learning how to mange everything on my own and be truly independent for the first time ever in my 25 years of living. In January, I had gotten in a relationship with a woman who was 6 years older than me (you do the math) which I should not have gotten into for my own sanity, lesson learned there. I won’t go into the details on that here out of respect of that person but if someone I know finds this blog that I have, someone did on my prior post, that I’m still trying to rack my brain who that is but I digress, Point is if you know me and know I wan in a short 2 month relationship then you know what you know. Other than that hiccup in the year there was only one or two things that really were terrible this year for myself.

Up until May this year I had been on the bench getting paid to do nothing at the parent company where I am a Cybersecurity consultant. Up until that point I had been on the bench 8-9 months, contemplating looking for another job as I had grown noticably frustrated and fed up with nothing to do and nothing to show for it, making it hard to look for another job, making it a double-edged sword in a sense. I was lucky enough to be put on a very good project for a very well known company, where I still am contracted out to today, as I write this. I’ve got 2 pay raises as well as a promotion in my 8 months on the project. I guess as the saying goes “having patience pays dividends” and I guess in this case I can say it has.

My mother has dealt with a major health issue this year, as with the relationship I told people about I will not go into details of her issue out of respect for her privacy, again if you know, you know. For me this really put life into perspective for me, thankfully my mother is doing fine and recovering, but as I’ve always lived by I always take one day at a time and never try to look to far ahead. The two above events this year were about the only things that were awful about this year. Other than that it has been a pretty uneventful, drama free year. Which to me is a good thing as it should be right?

My 2019 goal was really successful for the most part, it was to focus on myself and learn to live truly independent and learn to do everything I can for myself, well for myself. I think for the most part I accomplished that goal for sure. One thing in 2019 I fell short on and in the same breath accomplished something with it is my Twitch goals. They were to be a consistent streamer when I can with work, that I abysmally failed this year. However, I did manage to surpass 500 followers on Twitch, a goal I never expected to hit this year or with how my streams were going on earlier in the year, even next year/ That was a pleasant surprise I can actually and am pretty proud of. I started a podcast with my friends that is fun. We have always thought of doing one and we finally are doing one semi regularly now called the Thugscast. I didn’t have a good sense of a work schedule until I joined the project I’m on so now that I have that I plan on streaming pretty consistently in 2020. With the thought of 2020 in mind, here are some goals I have for myself in 2020.

Goals for 2020

• Spend less money and save more (Spent WAY too much this year)
• Stream and make content on Twitch on a regular basis
• Hit 750-1000 followers on Twitch
• Continue the Thugscast with the squad
• Get my Security + Certification
• Get a Dog
• Continue to work on and improve myself to be a better personal

I’m sure there are more I can add, but that’s all I can think of at the moment.

All in all, was 2019 a really bad year for myself personally? No. Was it one that stood out? No. Did it need to? No. Did I primarily focus on myself to better myself to build a future? Yes, and I think I did a good job at it, not perfect, but definitely a good start in the right direction. I’ve got a steady job, a house, and a degree, I can’t complain. In 2020, take one day at a time and may things, or people come when they may.

Here is to a well hoping 2020 and to all of you reading this happy New Year in a few days!

Let me know your goals for 2020 in the comments section.

Until I come up with another post,

See Ya,

-Ryan